Weigh-in: Just F-it.

192.8-->192.8-->196.6

There is a part of me that says, "Be afraid! Be very afraid!" with this little uptick, with my mind scolding me for the days I ate too many sweets or too much pasta. It wants to douse these flames with promises to eat extra less, work out extra more, and refocus to break through this plateau my weight loss has sat on for the past year or so.

Fuck it. Just….that.

There is a bigger part of me that says, "Dude, it's less than 4 pounds, you have 3 slices of lasagna in your stomach from last night's holiday celebration, and you're the fittest you've ever been in your entire life. So chill the fuuuuuuck out." Historically, I have put on weight in the winter, and lost it in the summer, a variation of 10-15 pounds.  Looking over the past month, eating-wise it wasn't great, and part of me is surprised I'm only up 4 lbs. The bigger part, again, is "DUDE. It was a great month on many (nonblog related) levels, circle back when you're ready." So I'm gonna go with that voice. I could still stand to lose another 20 pounds, but my gut doesn't protrude anymore and my arms look suspiciously thicker.

As Fall descends, I'm going to need to be more mindful of my daily caloric intake due to less riding and heavier seasonal foods, so maybe shave it here and there, maybe play with increasing the number of calories during the day so I'm not tempted by sweets or kind bars in the evenings. Moderation is nothing if it's not supported by balance.

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WEEKLY AVERAGE: 3023

That's an ugly number -- usually my vanity pushes that number down a little on the weeks that end with a weigh in. Just a lower bar to get over this coming month, I suppose.

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MONDAY COUNT: 2440

SLEPT: 9:45pm-5am, 7.25hr
A bit tired from the weekend, over ate a bit on Sunday so easy to keep it moderate today.

AM SNACK: 5:15am, iced green tea

BREAKFAST: 7am, apple/beet/celery/carrot/cayenne/cucumber/ginger juice, 160 cal

BREAKFAST 2: 10am, steel cut oatmeal, 450 cal

LUNCH: 12:45pm, falafel, split pea soup, health salad, pickles, 620 cal 

PM SNACK: 3:30 pm, momma salad, Grazebox almonds , 310 cal

DINNER: 6:30pm, mahi mahi, asparagus, poppa salad with caesar dressing, 600 cal

EVENING SNACK: 7:30pm, popcorn, +/- 300 cal
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TUESDAY COUNT: 2770

SLEPT: 10pm-3am, 5 hrs
Productive morning, did a lift, prep for lasagna baking tomorrow. Busy day at work, wasn't able to get a nap in, the horror.

AM SNACK: 3:15am, iced green tea, 0 cal

BREAKFAST: 7am, apple/beet/celery/carrot/cayenne/cucumber/ginger juice, 160 cal

BREAKFAST 2: 10am, Fage whole yogurt with honey, vanilla and almonds, 450 cal

LUNCH: 12:45pm, chicken meatballs, steamed string beans, mushroom curry,  pickles, 620 cal 

PM SNACK: 3:30 pm, momma salad, Grazebox seed mix , 300 cal

DINNER: 6:30pm, grilled chicken breast,  roasted brussel sprouts, poppa salad with Cesar dressing, 670 cal

EVENING SNACK: 7:45pm, 2 kind bars, half a bag of veggie straws, bag of honey grahams, 570 cal

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WEDNESDAY COUNT: 2855

SLEPT: 9pm-4:15am, 7.25 hrs

Nice sleep, the kind I usually get after a day of bike riding, what a treat. Got lasagnas in the oven by 5:45am, that was nice.

AM SNACK: 4:30am, iced green tea, 0 cal

BREAKFAST: 7:45am, apple/beet/celery/carrot/cayenne/cucumber/ginger juice, 160 cal

BREAKFAST 2: 9:30am, steel cut oatmeal 450 cal

LUNCH: 12:45pm, grilled chicken breast, roasted brussel sprouts, quinoa,  pickles, 645 cal 

PM SNACK: 3:30 pm, momma salad, Grazebox popcorn , 210 cal

PM SNACK 2: 5pm, poppa salad with cesar dressing, 180 cal

DINNER: 6:30pm, shrimp pad thai, fried tofu, curry puff, most of 1 beer, +/- 800 cal

EVENING SNACK: 8pm, 2 kind bars, 410 cal

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BIKE CREDIT: 710 cal

THURSDAY COUNT: 4565

SLEPT: 9:30pm-2:30am, 5 hrs

Good morning ride. Holiday meal was a bit too much with me, ugg.

AM SNACK: 3am, iced green tea, 150mg caffeine, homemade granola bar, 185 cal

BIKE SNACK: 4:30am, homemade granola bar, 185 cal

BREAKFAST: 6:45am, apple/beet/celery/carrot/cayenne/cucumber/ginger juice, 160 cal

BREAKFAST 2: 9:30am, Fage whole yogurt with honey, vanilla and almonds,  450 cal

LUNCH: 12:45pm, chicken sausage, black beans, roasted broccoli and shitakes, pickles, 550 cal

PM SNACK: 3:30 pm, momma salad, Grazebox oat crackers and onion marmalade , 200 cal

PM SNACK 2: 4:30pm, poppa salad with cesar dressing, potato stix, 580 cal

DINNER: 5:30pm, homemade lasagna, ice cream, +/- 1200 cal

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FRIDAY COUNT: 2485

SLEPT: 9pm-5:30am, 8.5 hrs

AM SNACK: 5:45am, iced green tea,

BREAKFAST: 7:30am, apple/beet/celery/carrot/cayenne/cucumber/ginger juice, 160 cal

BREAKFAST 2: 9:45am, fruit smoothie, 500 cal

LUNCH: 12:45pm, sardines and avocado on whole wheat toast, health salad, pickles, 615 cal

PM SNACK: 3:30 pm, momma salad, Cheezits , 310 cal

DINNER: 6:15pm, tray of random Wholefoods hot bar, +/- 900 cal